Dear You.
You never thought you’d hear from me again. You thought you’d burned that bridge a thousand times over, and you did. And don’t worry, this isn’t me rebuilding that bridge or fighting old battles. This is me, putting sentiments into words that I think need to be said.
You left me in a mess, a mess of me- a mess of us and the mess we made of life. With all of our good intentions and struggles against convention we made a mess of everything. And that night that you dropped out of it all, you’d had enough of the good, the bad and the horrible; you left me there to clean it all up. A move of pure cowardice.
And right now, the only thing I want to say to you is thank you. You crapped out, and I’m so glad you did. You may look back and see it as one of the worst decisions of your life but it was one of the best decisions of my life (and I didn’t even make it!) We needed to end and I just couldn’t do it.
Your one decision altered the course of my life. It’s one of the reasons I’ve loved these last seven years. From every painful regret and tear, to getting over it, and to jumping head first into Life as I know it now, it wouldn’t have happened if you hadn’t dropped everything and walked away. And every time I think back on us and those horrible days after “the end” I remind myself – “Never again wait until someone else finds the strength to pull the plug on a bad thing- pull it yourself long before it feels like it’s ‘too late’.”
So, Thanks.
– Me
And you, the one reading this… Remember- “Don’t wait until someone else steps in and takes charge of your life and makes the hard necessary decisions. Take charge yourself and end bad things, bad habits, bad relationships. Whether it’s a job you hate, a negative friendship, or lazy habits. Don’t wait for someone else to get the courage to do it for you. It hurts more that way.” Get the strength to do what’s best. Your future you will thank you a thousand times over.
